Why Ditching Insta Was The Best Social Cleanse
‘Comparison is the thief of joy’ — Roosevelt.
I thought I used to live by this quote until I realised the constant insta-perfection of other peoples lives made me feel like utter shit. How can you look so perfect in a pandemic. How can you find the motivation to get up, exercise, eat well and work on yourself? I mean, well done because I pretty much did — and am still doing, the opposite.
I had two months on furlough leave where I vowed social media wasnt going to add to my demise. I deleted instagram and I haven’t looked back nearly 6 months later. I thought I might feel like I was missing out on the latest updates but I didn’t think twice. If I needed to see an important peice of ‘gossip’ (because, let’s face it, that’s all it is) my gals would be sure to screenshot it anyway.
I felt less alone, less of a failure and definitely less of a whale since I ditched the dreaded online photo album. The pain of seeing the perfectly coifed faux-blow dry , the immaculate 17 step skincare routine and the fucking Joe Wicks enthusiasts who lost weight almost immediately after lockdown.
I felt like hell. Living at home, struggling with generalised anxiety disorder and OCD — the last thing I wanted to do was maintain my ‘looks’ and get healthy. I couldn’t even get out of bed some days. Now dont think this post is a dig at the girls and guys who did this — I fucking applaud you because that is hard. Self-love and motivation is hard work and you've done it. Kudos.
You just make me jealous. Not because of you directly but because I can’t (or won’t) do it for myself.
Instagram only paints the picture of perfection unless, why share it?
Thats how I felt and how I still feel and why I have so much respect for people who post their real selves on social media.
Its made me feel less like a failure and more like a human being. You won’t realise you’re comparing yourself until you start disliking yourself or wishing for more than you can get. There is a difference between inspiration, aspiration and total lies. I don’t compare myself anymore because I dont have anyone to compare myself to. I keep in touch with my circle and celebrate their success.
I focused on me and the Insta-Cleanse really did me justice. Comparison really is the thief of joy.